Day of Thanks for May 11

lost in the woodLEO Jul 23 | Aug 22 The hill where I take my late afternoon hikes is teeming with the six-petaled purple wildflower known as the elegant cluster-lily. Every one of them – and there are hundreds – leans hard in the direction of the sun in the west. Should I deride them as conformists that follow the law of the pack? Should I ridicule them for their blind devotion? Or should I more sensibly regard them as having a healthy instinct to gravitate toward the life-giving light? I’ll go with the latter theory. In that spirit, Leo, I urge you to ignore the opinions of others as you turn strongly toward the sources that provide you with essential nourishment.


As July 1st gets closer and closer I realize why people take 3 years to plan a move like this. Holy shit there are a lot of things coming at me from all directions and a ton of emotions come with each new thing. I keep oscillating back and forth between, I am brave, and, I am completely unprepared and insane.

As much as taking another year to do this sounds like an option it is not.

This month marks the 18th year that I have lived with Tinnitus (chronic ringing in the ears). In the last year in Toronto I have had to leave coffee shops, restaurants, clothing stores and  bars all because of the volume at which they play music. A lot of the time it is overwhelming  and frustrating for me to be out and about in my city. Lately due to the state of my health I feel like I am fleeing and not moving from Toronto so no matter how unprepared I am or how many issues present themselves that I did not see coming, I am rolling the dice and hoping like hell that being out on my land will help to bring some much needed quiet back into my life.



Medicine Man for April 4

me and the grand canyon

March 26: I am writing these words. Working on the blog and lining up projects cause that is how this day works. Planning is needed to enjoy busy.

April 7, this is the first day since 2014 began that I can see 5 weeks in front of me with no travel or no out of town visitors coming by. I have 5 full weeks until I jump back on a plane to head to Arizona. This time not for an outdoor adventure but for a love affair adventure.

I have decided that with these 5 weeks I am going to get around to the one thing I seem to keep putting off, getting super healthy. I keep getting close but then life gets away from me which is completely fine. Balance is a good thing.

Right now women are posting photos of themselves with no makeup in support of Breast Cancer awareness. In awareness of cancer for the next 5 weeks I am going to give my body a break and am going to do the following;

1/ no food from restaurants or pre-made (goodbye canned drinks)

2/ gym 5 days a week, take three 5 minute breaks to stretch at work (10am,1pm,4pm) and finish with a 20 minute stretch session at home

3/ no booze

4/ no social media after work – eyes are getting a break

5/ I am still going to wear my limited makeup but I will continue on with homemade deodorant, toothpaste and coconut oil for my skin.

When I was 21 I went suddenly deaf in my right ear and have had chronic ringing for the past 17 years. I have made my peace with this condition and we have lived a somewhat quiet coexistence for about 13 years. In the last 6 months my ear went AWOL from this agreement. The best way I have to explain chronic ringing is “imagine being allergic to sound.” Now think about how much sound we have decided to make mandatory in our days. The way to control chronic ringing; 8 hours sleep, low sodium diet, low alcohol intake, drink your water, exercise and avoid stress. If we are going with the glass is half full attitude, which is how I roll, then at the age of 21 I was given a personal warning signal on unhealthy behaviour.  So now in order to bring one part of my body back in I have to work at it which seems a bit much but the only thing to be on the other side of these 5 weeks is good.

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