DAY OF THANKS BEFORE I GO

ryan on BC bike trailsLeo Jul 23 | Aug 22 Do you ever feel reverence and awe, Leo? Are there times when you spontaneously yearn to engage in acts of worship? Is there anyone or anything that evokes your admiration, humility, and gratitude? The coming weeks will be a good time to seek out experiences like these. According to my reading of the astrological omens, you will get tender jolts of transformational inspiration if you blend yourself with a sublime force that you trust and respect.

These horoscopes come out in Now Toronto on Thursday but I usually like to sit with them for a few days. Hard to interpret someone’s interpretation of the stars for you.

I am posting today because I am leaving for 14 days to go hang out with my BFF from Grade 4 in Panama and Costa Rica. Aside from my family, he is the first mentor the universe gave me so once again, I could not agree more.

 

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Two sides to every story

In my 20s, I feel madly in love with two women. They were night and day from each other.

In one space, I could view the world through the eyes of a 14 year old boy. The other one saw a 26 year old lesbian. I had no idea how to combine both sides of me, so neither worked.

In my 30s, I met two women who instantly reminded me of the first two.

TO-women1 TO-womenAs I enter my 40s, I am at a place where finally I am able to bring all of me to the party.  I think the next round of falling for someone is going to be beautiful.

I like Spring

beaches heart womanI cannot wait for light, airy summer nights in Toronto. The romance of fall and the cashmere feel of winter have worn off.

I like spring, it reattaches me to my heart.

Day of Thanks for March 9

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Leo Jul 23 | Aug 22 “As you get older, the heart sheds its leaves like a tree,” said French novelist Gustave Flaubert. “You cannot hold out against certain winds. Each day tears away a few more leaves; and then there are the storms that break off several branches at one go. And while nature’s greenery grows back again in the spring, that of the heart never grows back.” Do you agree with Flaubert, Leo? I don’t. I say that you can live with such resilient innocence that your heart’s leaves grow back after a big wind, and become ever-more lush and hardy as you age. You can send down such deep, strong roots and stretch your branches toward the sun with such vigour that your heart always has access to the replenishment it needs to flourish. The coming weeks will provide evidence that what I say is true.

 

Remembering you forgot to take it seriously.

I have had a really hard time getting over someone. Not because I believed her to be the one but because she lied to me.

In my 20s sure, I accept that. Not many of us knew who we were. We drank, we partied, we lied.

But to know the 38 year old me, I can’t understand how someone would lie to me. My only expectation is honestly and I am really open about that. I accept changes of heart, changes of mind but I abhor deception.

She touched a really deep nerve in me and right now, the world I live in keeps hitting it. As we get closer to our upcoming election I am getting more and more aware of how mad I am at Canada. When my thoughts go to this place I am going to envision a big, beautiful, Canadian tree and what it feels like to grow and change one more time.

Happy Birthday!

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAThis is one of my favourite pictures of my mom. She is not a fan of it. I love it. It is like the best caricature of her ever.

I grew up in a home filled with everything good. Love, laughter, humour, discipline, chores, road trips, friendship (there is more, way more).

When I talk about my mom I always say two things….

“If you looked up the definition of unconditional love, you would see a picture of her there.”

“My mom is like Martha Stewart without the need to be famous. Amazing baking, homemade halloween costumes, cake decorating course birthday cakes, hand made moccasins, a creative and well decorated home and a garden that was delicious. Oh yah, she also worked full time.”

 

Valentinus says….

You should always follow your heart because even if you don’t, you don’t avoid heartache, you just avoid the good times.

Vday lady

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love.

I love heart graffiti and have been taking photos of it for years. In the beginning of my blog I dedicated Tuesdays to these hearts and all moments of love.

This year I decided to start playing along and hung some of my heart art up in Toronto. The first one was in Kensington Market and the second one was taken down before I could even get a photo. I like to think someone took it home rather than took it down.

My third piece was hung up near Church Street.

love art - churchI have not really had a relationship with Church Street for the past 6 years but for the first 8 it was an important part of my life. In 2000 I arrived here after a year of travelling and found myself living near Church and Maitland for the first month and then in 2006 when I came back to live after a year of travelling, I again found myself on Church Street.  In the years 2000 – 2005, I partied there, met girls there, opened up and managed a Flight Centre and found out that it can be a really wonderful thing to be a gay person.

So this is my gift of thanks to a Street that showed me a lot of love.

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