In my 20s, I feel madly in love with two women. They were night and day from each other.

In one space, I could view the world through the eyes of a 14 year old boy. The other one saw a 26 year old lesbian. I had no idea how to combine both sides of me, so neither worked.

In my 30s, I met two women who instantly reminded me of the first two.

As I enter my 40s, I am at a place where finally I am able to bring all of me to the party.  I think the next round of falling for someone is going to be beautiful.